The latest.
I have been a bad blogger. Really bad. As you can very well see. The thing is the last, I don’t know, 6 months of my life I think is safe to say, has been pretty intricately personal. It’s like a mixture of heart surgery, recovery and then more surgery. I know. Sounds pretty fantastic right? But honestly it has been. I have grown so much since the fall that I can honestly say, I am different.
I always say, “Change is good because it brings growth”.
Those would be my infamous lines to friends in passing or family or whomever needed a bit of a boost but when it came time for me to live by these very words, things were not so fluffy and uplifting. I grappled. I struggled. I moaned and I ached. AND. I. LEARNED. And I developed and I worked muscles out that have not been used in years. Muscles of my heart so to say.
So that’s what I have been doing. Transforming.
I kept thinking though, I need to write. I need to write. And I have been, as much as I could but on a completely different avenue than the blog. As many of you know I have set out to complete a memoir of sorts. A story of me as a girl to present and all the wonderful, dark, nasty and beautiful happenings that came along the way. I just want the world to know that all is never lost. That God, the Jesus that I know and love and passionately pursue and live my life to know and glorify, He is the one that has restored things that should never have been stolen, never had been lost and redeemed a girl that was so far from herself, she barely could say her name without feeling the weight of shame and guilt and loss of life.
Everything has its time though and I am chasing down the dreams I feel He has planted deep within my heart. The dreams only He can lead us to fulfill. On that note, I am so happy to introduce what else I have been working on. Photography.
I love pictures. I love the way they say a million things in their silence with their colors and smiles and shades. I love how they freeze a moment in time and I love the way, if done well, can capture the heart of its subject. That is what I call the art of photography, to capture the subjects heart. And so I am stepping out on the water here. I feel that I have sort of been backed into a corner by God and he is telling me, run or fly. So I am choosing the latter and stepping onto uncharted territory to live my dream.
Well, you have yourselves a delightful, day or night or morning or whatever it is your a having and keep on keeping on. For it is written,
“I know the plans I have for you says the Lord,
plans to give you a HOPE and a FUTURE”…
